Maybe I will tell her when I get to meet her nxt time. Okay... 2day was finally the long awaited cca day. Confess quite alot 2day. Than cca. Let nature take it's courses. Realize everything so not the same w/o de sec 4. Seriously. Half expected tt holiday schedule will be packed. Yea, indeed half half. Not sure of the full 1 but roughly. But wad i can confirm is tt 2nd week of the holi everyday going back for math. Super suay. Want to get into UNSW math but see de schedule also sianz. So was like hoping not 2 get in but still got in. Had Math, English, IVP, Guides & CCKSS idol during holi. Hope i can handle it though things crash wif each other occasionally... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Maybe what ShiHui said might be true. Maybe i shouldn't do it behind back, behind close door. I should jux confess everything. Let it be resolve as a whole. Yes, I'm gna do tt.
signing off, Fail!
♥ 10:02 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Had a mass conversation on msn last nite. Alot of things happen which I dunwan to elaborate. When she said that, actually I was more hurt than angry. Nvm, dun talk bout tt. Today, Can say quite alot of events happen. I thought of jux ignoring her. But I can't make myself to do that. Even if she hurt me so deep she still once my friend. I still will choose the right thing. No matter what others say. I going to follow my heart. Hope time can prove to them. So today dance practice. B4 tt, walk round sch wif ShiHui. Talk bout some stuffs. Than went back, dance a few round than went for IVP. Super boring. Dismiss le, chiong to dance room. To find a empty room, they all left. In the end, they were at the fitness there. Walk round pasar malam. Sent them home than home too. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I don't like keeping a secret. But do I have a choice?! I'm going through more than you all are! Give me some time. I really want to let you all see something different. I really want to reveal the truth. I don't like to keep it. I really wish I never knew so much, never experience so much. I know you guys are angry. But I really cannot help it. When the time is right, I will tell. For now I going to keep it a secret. I really hope for your understanding. I don't want things to turn out differently. Please, just understand. I'm doing this not just for me but for you all too. Sorry... I'm really tired of smiling or laughing through my deepest wound. Tired of acting like it does not hurt. Tired of pretending I don't care. Tired of all these secret. Tired of going your way instead of mine. Tired of being the solo soldier fighting alone. Tired of going through so much. I really want to scream out everything deep within me..
signing off, Fail!
♥ 9:36 PM
Sunday, May 23, 2010
黄鸿升 - 玩具枪与玫瑰
这是我的告别演唱会 zhe shi wo de gao bie yan chang hui 烟火让一万都昙花一现 yan huo rang yi mo du tan hua yi xian 不可以流泪不值得留恋 bu ke yi liu lei bu zhi de liu lian
不过是最后一场园游会 bu guo shi zui hou yi chang yuan you hui 而不让我们都假装无邪 er bu rang wo men du jia zhuang wu xie 很少的甜点没有在管明天 hen shao de tian dian mei you zai guan ming tian
你只要一把玩具枪与玫瑰 ni zhi yao yi ba wan ju qiang yu mei gui 就推翻掉我给你的超完美 jiu tui fan diao wo gei ni de chao wan mei 没有神没有鬼没有回忆的醉 mei you shen mei you gui mei you hui yi de zui 没有谁的泪水比较咸 mei you shui de lei shui bi jiao xian
你只要一把玩具枪与玫瑰 ni zhi yao yi ba wan ju qiang yu mei gui 就摧毁掉我爱你的全世界 jiu cui hui diao wo ai ni de quan shi jie 没有钱没永远没有人会可怜 mei you qian mei yong yuan mei you ren hui ke lian 今年的十二月没有雪 jin nian de shi er yue mei you xue
没有忧愁没有永远 mei you you chou mei you yong yuan 没有永远 mei you yong yuan
我用叹息对你不隐藏 wo yong tan xi dui ni bu yin cang 我把我心脏埋进了音箱 wo ba wo xin zang mai jin le yin xiang 绝望的独唱想你的音浪 jue wang de du chang xiang ni de yin lang
就关掉所有巨大的音箱 jiu guan diao suo you ju da de yin xiang 依赖这脑海一样的音光 yi lai zhe nao hai yi yang de yin guang 让我们习惯无至尽的以往 rang wo men xi guan wu zhi jin de yi wang
signing off, Fail!
♥ 5:00 PM
Friday, May 21, 2010
Ytd got back result... Super nervous. Very scared i fail lor! But i guess i didnt fail after all. But still is not very well done either. EL p1 -> 35/60 EL p2 -> 34/50 CH p1 -> 42/70 CH p2 -> 43/70 MA -> 49/70 SCI -> I 4get :X GEO -> 45/60 HIST -> 42/45 Was shocked to noe my hist result... I didnt study until WWII and come out quite a few bout it... So have to forced out the memory of wad cher say in class... Sports day 2day... Despite the miscommunication at the prize table area there, they still did a gd job. W/o any snrs! For the time keeper part... Haizz... It was exciting... But sit there, space v constrain... Overall i think quite a pleasant experience. Go lot eat aft tt... Thn at de stadium there, near ending... Gastric pain! Guess is lunch nvr eat... :S So... Walked to lot... Pain... Ate LJS. Ate abit... Dno y, v full. Walk home. -,- Feel like puking... Swallow back my vomit... It does not taste gd... Went home... Gna slp at 10... Coz i wan energy for the torturing day ahead...
signing off, Fail!
♥ 8:54 PM
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Post exams are super duper boring. They get some crappy trainers and they will start talking crap and you will call that enrichment. Zzz. Had Some weird post exam program. I think the most meaningful post exam is probably the ICT lessons. But I think they should teach more advances stuffs. Than for the past two days[Mon & Tue], had to stay back for IVP. It was consider fun lah. But I dread staying back to continue working while others go home, go play, whatsoever. I very jealous can?! I like going home late but not under such circumstances. Today IVP was... LOL?! Ami as crippled man, Denise as blind man and JingMin as handless freak?! After IVP once again like on Mon Chiong to I&E room to see them dance. But today was a bit delay as we go 'play' with Sabrina Lim car. Sadded. 女神 left before i came. So after they got dismiss, Eunice return remote control than buy BBT.After that walked JieYing and Eunice home. Homed myself home afterward. ____________________________________________________________________ I trying to write proper English. But still I added singlish to make it sound better. MILKTEA IS NICE!!!
signing off, Fail!
♥ 9:03 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Gna blog as fast as i can now and later gna do IVP Tons left... FRIDAY! Nth much 2 say... Jux tt during sudoku tt time sunshine darn funny lor... Coz we were late frm ICT... Thn we do de sudoku... Darn easy... Finish within mins... I: If we were not late thn we will be v 闲 rite? Emily: No, ............ We will b v 甜 Aiya... Smth like tt de... 4get le... Dance rehearsal aft tt... Went home 腰酸背痛。。。 Hav 2 admit old... SATURDAY! Woke up at 5.15 Thn train frm 10+ to 5.30+ Train like mad... Leg super pain... March in and out in and out infinite times... Thn still had 2 PRETEND tt we hav a umbrella in our hand... Retarded lah... The person shoutin keep zao xia... LOLZ~ Thn de army CNT MARCH! Suck ttm... Total FAILURE... Make us stand there... very pain sia the leg... Lunch suck too! Haizz... But still is quite fun lah... Although v tiring... And i can get tan! :D ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Had been waking up super early this whole week. Monday to Friday woke up at 5.45[5.37],than Saturday at 5.15[5.07], Sunday(today) at 5[4.52]. Tired ttm! But still i'm gna preserver as this is the route i choose.
signing off, Fail!
♥ 3:44 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
2day post exam super ultra sian... The sch dun even know what we want lah! Anyhow put enrichment... At least do a survey to see if we like it or not first than decide to put lah! And instead of after everything than ask us do survey... Seriously wasting our time and money of something we have no interest on... Than after post exam have to stay back for the dance rehearsal... Okay lah overall... Than later have a chat with Ms Tham together with the others... Than later my Jie call me... So me and jieYing left... Meet Jie at lot than buy cake for mom... Went home than i want make red egg for my mother... So search up recipes... Okay... I failed...
signing off, Fail!
♥ 9:37 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Haizz... GG liaoz... I'm flunkin every paper... Not 1 is i have confident de... Even hav confident de... Do paper liaoz... Also... Haizz... Chinese -> Nth 2 revise, nvr revise = FLUNK! English-> Nth 2 revise, nvr revise = FLUNK! Geography-> Got study, didnt study finish all = FLUNK! History-> Got revise abit, some here n there nvr read= FLUNK! Science-> Chiong last min at parade square = FLUNK! Math-> Didnt even study until = FLUNK! See... Flunk everything le lah... Told myself at de beginning of de yr i'm gna work hard... But wad did i do?! NTH! Paid partial attention in class... Go home use com... Thn slp... No revision time no homework time... Maybe i shld hav better time management... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I think i love the feeling of being alone. I don't know why. But it feels good. Now days, I don't know why. But I love to be at home. Yes, I know is boring. But maybe this is part of growing up. I don't like to hang out so much with friends now unless in school. I loiter lesser. But is a good thing cause i'm saving money... :D Think writing in proper english is cool... :D
FAIL! I like de word 'fail' IDK why. XP
signing off, Fail!
♥ 3:10 PM
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Yea... I came 2 post bout my week... Tuesday! Hmm... Had lots of lesson... Thn played wif SunShine spec... LOLZ~ Wednesday! I talked 2 TWL for de 1st time! Omg... Cool beam! Thn aft sch... Haizz... I shoot Ms Tham... Can 4get bout promotion... Thn later went SingYi hse study 4 tmr History... Guess i studied most except WWII... Zzz... Thursday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIHUI!!! Lolz~ Had EL paper 2 n history... Erm... All I can sad is tt... It is badly done... Hope that i still can score well... V scared 2 take back paper... Yea... Thn aft sch... Bla bla bla... Thn meet ShiHui... Went round lot... Thn 2 ShiHui hse... Cool... Friday! Aft sch went I&E room... Guess everything went off smoothly... With in between some R21 scene... Heng Ms Tham nvr see... Consider fun... Saturday! Went joggin at canel with Eunice... Thn walk round teck whye there... Thn go de NTUC 2 enjoy free air-con... lol Pei Eunice eat her dinner while i drink milk tea... Saw a snail. A snail dun move as slow as we think it is... Went 2 temple pray... LOLZ~ Cool beam! My 1st time wif frenz... Yea... Sunday! Nth 2 say...
ＩLOVEＭＩＬＫTEA!
signing off, Fail!
♥ 9:26 PM
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Finally bloggin... :D MONDAY! No assemble... But instead had NAFPA 5 stations... Went home... At night... Photoshoped 3 hrs plus 4 de invitations... TUESDAY! Supposedly no aft program n i can get home n slp... But... Haizz... UNSW Sci... Guess i will flunked it... Coz i dun hav enough time 2 complete... Left 7 questions... Thn went lot 2 meet portia... Bought de invitations stuffs went home, bath... Thn photoshop... WEDNESDAY! Had MT paper... Super difficult can?! Guess i'm flunkin it... Paper 1... Guess i jux choose de wrong questions 2 write... :'( Nid 2 work harder... Thn w8 4 portia for 4 1/2 hrs... In between eat thn slacked saw shihui thn slacked again... Discuss thn homed... THURSDAY! Aft sch find portia 4 de printin stuffs... Miscommunication... Thn went lot 4 printin... Thn eat... meet Nicholas... Burnin... Didnt managed 2 do wad was intended... FRIDAY! X-country... Had duty... Giv souvenir... Got abit tan... Wish i could b tanner... Better than nth... Aft tt... Giv out invitations... Went 2 west spring, teck whye and BPGHS... Cool... Went home feelin super hot... Saturday![Today] Labour day... :D Went subway 2 eat... Darn... Had been eatin fast food so often... Swear i'm not gna eat it 4 de nxt 3 weeks... Skipped lunch n dinner aft tt... Think of alot of meaningful sentences 2day...
